Meant to be?

I don't know if I'm "meant" to be here in the US as Julia any more than I was "meant" to be in Korea as Jee Sun. Part of me believes in fate, the other part believes we make our own fate.

The fact of the matter is, I'm here now. I'm an American citizen. I speak English. I have a Minnesota accent.

I can look to my past, look to that moment in time when my birth mother signed away her parental rights, to the plane ride that brought me to the US and lament, "What if?"

Or I can look to my future, to the jobs I could have, to the things I could do with the skills and experience I've acquired, and ask, "What next?"

You tell me which one is more productive.